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Harv’s  2025 SELF CALDRON

In mid 2024, Harv logged his first several write hours that he considered write.  Since, he has logged few others.  He has not established a write.flow in 2024 — thus a self.cauldron for 2025 is scoped.  [But there has been progress — a second nine hour write.session was logged in week 24w33.]

He defined himself, with highlights of definition as “complete individuality”, “own” as in ownership, his “nature and character”, a “better” self, and his “interests.”  But the basis for this is already lost — overrun by other thoughts.

The Content of his 2024 Self Perspective included his ‘better’ Spirit Commands;     his universal human hierarchical needs as Existence needs fulfillment, Relatedness needs fulfillment, and Growth needs fulfillment;    Harv’s immediate three faces of his self — I-SelfMe-Self, and We-Self;    then to a way the self is functionally organized beginning with a definition of the Universal-Self where I-Choice is the central essence of each individual self;    and from there comes a Target-Self into view;    and in conclusion, the love hierarchy which can be chosen as a way to happiness;    Respect all 117 billion humans that exist or have existed,  Encourage those within 24/7 reach of one’s self realm, and Challenge selected others with self-protection rules not necessarily overt.

However, the self practices self-preservation thought by being covert within an open-self-nature.     Harv feels his brain / mind thinking 24/7 — never shutting down, nor does he try to shutit down, for example, he attempts to structure sweet dreams, even day dreams, as a counter-brain-tool to manage the continuous flow of thought.

Content of this computer page — write fragments

  • 1. perennial Happiness.  
  • 2. Harv’s jobs.life
  • 3. 13,000 years ago
  • 4. the need to scope his self.work.flow, self.write.flow, …
  • 5. “Fatal Flaw” concludes — not diagnoses
  • 6. Harv is a minimalism grinder. 
  • 7. Two life-time parallel realities — naif and learning 
  • 8. 
  • 9. Harv’s marriage.work.life
  • 10. Harv’s youth.work.life
  • 11 Too responsible source


……….. potential junk below

In his big picture of his self, Harv connects cooperation with “unified.”  In his mind, getting life tasks more together (more unified and choices ‘cooperating’, that is, more functional), is betterment.  Thus he studies to better understand and cooperate between his self actions in the self-interest of what he has formulated as the positive human feelings / emotions — Joy, Love, and Freeing.  His aim then may be more J, more L, more F — however tempered by the idea of “unlimited wants and limited resources.”  That could be critiqued as selfish, but Harv thinks not — it’s his self-interest.

Cooperation (written as co-operation in British English …) takes place when a group of [things] works or acts together for a collective benefit to the group as opposed to working in competition for … individual benefit.  From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

 The omitted word (...) is selfish.  

selfish: adjective: • (of a person, action, or motive) lacking consideration for others; concerned chiefly with one's own personal profit or pleasure. New Oxford American Dictionary


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Harv ‘s youth education was from parochial school — daily Mass where he followed along with his missal (the black flexible-cover onion-skinned book with those impressive mark strings of various vivid colors), classroom nuns, and occasional religious lessons from the priests.  Probably from the priests, he caught the drift that he should read-between-the-lines of the testaments AND of particular impression on Harv — “sins of omission.”  Perhaps there he learned to think — mind-wandering and wondering.  Young Harv was to pray that his parent would get back together — Harv knew, “Not a chance.”  Harv was supposed to go to individual confession along with the class and we marched over to church.  Harv remembers having trouble thinking up sins to confess.  During one confession, Father G began questioning — I was uncomfortably caught lying.   After that Harv discovered an out — if you went to confession on the weekend with your parents you wouldn’t have to go into the confessional as the class matched over to church during the week.  If mother ever asked if I went to confession, “I went at school.”  Certainly that was a lie and open to theological definition as venial, but that’s all that Harv had were of venial caliber.  So much for confession until 30+ years later at a self-study quasi-religious retreat, and without sins, which probably means without guilt.  However, still in mid life crisis mode, I did not have it together.



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Over the weeks in 2024aug, Harv’s write.work has developed into a patterned life.flow sustained by his three day weekly travel to his Disney World “write cabin,” that is, McDonald’s.  Although more write, but less focused, has been increasing at Orange City COA and in the car.

The evidence is exemplified by his reversed (from 2024w35 back to 24w01) trend pattern of weekly wholly.hours spent on write and sociality — Harv is more intellectually ‘awake’ and focused on his well-being in terms of  positive polarities fulfillment.

begin Illustration One

:year 2024 weekly.wholly.hours

(in reverse order from week 2024week35 back to 24w01)

for current week  I-Self 

 79 74 39 29 48 77 52 81 66 74 65 63 31 43 28 42 60 45 60 43 58 .

The year 2024 began with sporadic (underlined) higher life.productivity —  60 45 60 43 58.  Then, in the second quarter, life.flow productivity increased (light green highlight) — 81 66 74 65 63.  At mid year 2024, a relative lull — personal challenges screwed with his personal productivity — COA attitude* damped his productivity, plus he achieved 24/7 internet connection in his car, he launched into a renewed tackle of his computer mess with an M4 iPad (a non-files approach with limitations — one computer may no longer do it all for Harv — the iPad may not be Harv’s future).  * He humorous says with a smile and chuckle, “I hate old people”,   Recently, several ‘oldest’ have joined, one 99 years — she is vital and different from the ‘downer’ spirits.

Going forward (the green characters underlined) his personal productivity is reestablished — 79 74.  However, he maintains hopeful ever better diligence toward the fulfillment of his Existence and Relatedness needs.  

end Illustration One

Harv seeks clarity.  He aims to clarify his self understanding.  He writes to present his self clarification.  He has become more aware of his world defining him — especially a definition that he is not.  He understands why politicians race to define their opponents. 

Harv’s youth was formed to believe that humans were meant to cooperate — not to oppose — nor to kill each other, even to kill part of their spirit.

His growing understanding of challenge love has a connection to sorting those that oppose you — a definite personal betterment.  He may have “wised up” to this personal issue in mid 2024 (see Illustration One) — indirectly helping to un leash his better productivity.

Write also helps better his too-responsible criticism.

In general, write is Harv’s self-psychological-therapist — self Dx for which publication helps with self.critique, carried into Tx betterment action, mistakes corrected, and on with the aim of Joy-Love-Freeing fulfillment with shared laughter and definitely a smile for anyone ans everyone.  Talk, as opposed to no-talk for those who fit within Harv’s 24/7 weekly limitation.  Write may expand that depending on those that read and talk and/or write themselves. 

Specifically, in hindsight, with the purpose of understanding his current built-up self, he puts some pieces together, under the criticism, that picking his life pieces is likely biased.  

He picks at pop psychology, like he has done 100s of time before in his time of problem-solving need.  Sure he has these minor problems that continually need solving.  At the end of each life chapter, just like studying a textbook, there are a myriad of problems present for solution.  At 86, he writes the solutions evidentially, for many of his life.flow.chapters — Illustration Seven - ten ME-SELF scenes and Illustration Six - Harv’s college degree progression.



……  under construction      AFTER MORE THOUGHT the following WILL BE REWRITTEN

— a temporary.written.fragment.closure of a life distraction responding to (daughter Susan’s temper-caused car damage and her ‘this next’ psychological blowout and my somewhat panicked intervention — his write.work.life.flow was interrupted seemingly before it started.  In this case he did not overrun his writing ain - whatever overrun means — he was able to ‘easily’ absorb it using his current life style / tools.   “Yea — finally !”

That absorption was his fourth real write session and his first outside of Disney World McDonalds, ie, his changed / bettered retirement life style with weekly travel into Disney World quality for support of his write.work.life.

His serious study of his life flow began in the 1970s, within his marriage years.  And his study of writing went along with his progression of education degrees 1956-1996.

He invested in personal computing begining in 1980, aimed at writing himself out of his problems.  The computers led to the internet, particularity difficult with car-living.  He sent in a 1400 page dissertation for his 1996 PhD.  Since, he invested in Scrivener software which did little to enhance his writing ability.  In parallel, he availed free websites to publish his ‘work’.  He muddled along.  Then come serious use of Blogger after 2018, along with his Florida-living reinvention.  In 2024 he achieved 24/7 internet for his car.  The ability to instantly publish, although an editorial nightmare, was magic.  There was ‘the world’ out there looking at the scribble.  

But Harv came to distinguish between blog and write in 2024 — solidified his blog as personal performance evidence, and began to write.  His internet site now clearly distinguishes between blog contents and write.contents.  In mid 2024 — BINGO — four write session were achieved wher Harv spent hours and actually closed something, even if only a fragment, AND published that into his ‘world’ unedited, YET the write was published and accessible instead of being overrun and forgotten.

Thusly he writes.

From his blog Harv recognizes four write-work sessions that have begun a pattern he calls his write-work-life-flow — distinct from other life flow patterns, ie, job.life.flow, marriage.life.flow, education.life.flow, …  [He questions the use of “-“ or “.” to create his compound words.]

Harv’s life:time aim is primarily to facilitate his write.flow to clarify / understand whatever he chooses, AND to do it in retrieval written evidence for his read, and to build further personal growth.  In his past marriage.life he used 35mm slides — 4000 of those are still stuck in his digital conversion dream.  And he harbors perhaps a million words of scribble ‘lost’ in his several computers.

This write.flow aim will fulfill his growth interest for his remaining years.

For his write.flow, he uses a ‘friendly’ computer with word processing software, and he has come to find that instant publication, as in blogging, facilitates some control over his thought overrunning and non-closure tendency — fertile ground for his future personal growth.

In  clear hindsight as another task of his write, from his blog , in week 35, he considers the blog.development task actualized (closed).  The next task is to change his behavior to self betterment, ie, (1) solidify the Disney World quality flavor to retirement regiment, (2) better cope with daughter Susan’s hardship (her responsibility) without Harv’s self deprecation / disapproval (which probably was her father’s family condition, ie, deprecated / disapproved), (3) …

Harv hunts for clarity growth.  Included in that are evidentiary curation quotes of the current news — copy-and-paste note-taking as he reads about the world news going on around him and written about by others, used to form his thought opinions (brain writing).  His future growth lay in better communication via evidentiary writing.  Perhaps strangely, the publication only used as an organizational toll for his own productive read.  

……  under construction


— currently his upcoming 2025 SELF CALDRON, within which his write.work is critical for input clarity into his future self growth even in his 86th year.

An impactive example of clarity into Harv’s self is lit by a current-events media-article which he curated below.  The moral of the story is Harv likewise searches for clarity of his self, more-so than his need to clarify a yacht sinking.

Illustration Two

 A hunt for clarity - example

2024aug25sunday.       
Headline: The hunt for clarity.        The brother of James Cutfield, the captain, said he was a “well-respected” sailor who had worked on boats his whole life. Did the experienced sailor somehow make a series of catastrophic errors?        Rescuers instead found the wreckage of the Bayesian 50 meters underwater with its almost 10-meter-long keel raised.    Had it been deployed, it could have helped counter the wind buffeting the Bayesian’s 75-meter high aluminum mast and kept the ship stable. But without it, experts told the newspaper La Repubblica that gusts of 100 kilometers an hour (62mph) would have been enough to capsize the ship – and Monday’s storm far exceeded that.    Much of the focus for the investigation team is of course on the conduct of the captain, 51-year-old James Cutfield from New Zealand. He survived, along with eight of his crew, and is being questioned.        “We didn’t see it coming,” he told Italian media, alluding to the storm, in his only public comment so far.    The problem is: plenty of others did. Violent winds and rain were forecast, following days of searing heat. The head of the company that built the Bayesian, Giovanni Costantino, told me he was convinced there had been a litany of errors on board.    “At the back of the boat, a hatch must have been left open,” he said, “but also perhaps a side entrance for water to have poured inside.    "Before the storm, the captain should have closed every opening, lifted anchor, turned on the engine, pointed into the wind and lowered the keel."   https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/c0l8kj1p0ylo 
2024sepp21thursday        Specialist divers surveying the wreckage of the $40 million superyacht that sank off Sicily in August, killing eight people including British tech tycoon Mike Lynch, have asked for heightened security to guard the vessel, over concerns that sensitive data locked in its safes may interest foreign governments, multiple sources told CNN.    Italian Prosecutors who have opened up a criminal probe into multiple manslaughter and negligent shipwreck think the 56-meter (184-foot) yacht, the Bayesian, may contain highly sensitive data tied to a number of Western intelligence services, four sources familiar with the investigation and salvage operation said.    Lynch was associated with British, American and other intelligence services through his various companies, including the cyber security company he founded, Darktrace.   https://www.cnn.com/2024/09/21/europe/bayesian-yacht-watertight-safes-intl/index.html

end illustration two

Clarity.  Harv’s write.work.life.flow aim is clarity into his self.  Fo him, clarity means to write, and to read what he writes.  Unfortunately, his human entropy steals and hides his clarity from him.  In informal terms, “Harv fights the disorder within his self.”

So what does clarity get him?  In short, his clarity gets his self to positive human emotions / feelings within his self and the seeing of that in others — those are Joy Love Freeing (JLF).

Though out his 86 years, he has lost clarity continuously — he forgets, has a tendency not to follow current rules, gets into trouble,  he is a kid never growing up, …, and wants to grow his mind in intelligence in the interest of fulfilling his universal hierarchical human needs, those of Existence Relatedness Growth.  He considers his Existence and Relatedness fulfilled — although in-car living and COA sociality can be debated, and subject to authority.

To counter entropy and make his growth easier, and perhaps his behavior better, he has stumbled into Blogger publication to sharpen self criticism and allow another to peep into his inner workings about which he is also very curious.  Publication has permitted his ability to read his writing — his initial identification of his writing was apologetically referred to as “scribbling” (in his ignorance he has used “scribble” and “write”).  But as 2024 progresses, he is enthused by his Blogger writing.

Harv’s progress has been what some would describe as a long road.  His computer writing support began in 1980.  In 2024 week 34 he uncovered from his files a personal 1990s writing that mentioned his 13 year use of his T1000 computer — that was associated with his dissertation writing period challenge which pulled his job.work.life together under the heading of Functional Organization.  His formal education degree progress has been personal.life.work — a search / chase for self in his current terms.


POSTPERSPECTIVE   for the promise of clarity in Harv’s remaining life-time,  unto the revelation of Harv’s death action.  (Portend calm/ease of FL/CA geography,  react less to the flee-from-anger pattern,  and affect FL/CA health control.)
The perspectives of previous weekly blogs and life flows remain instructive.
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2018  life pattern awareness 
flow weekly LIFEWAY 
november-december  w44: fly/drive2CA, w45; holidays, PCP 3mo death watch. 
october      w40: , w41; , w42; w43; .
september  w35: fly2CA, w36; , w37; , w38; fly2FL; w39; teethProphy.
august        w31: PCP, w32;  , w33;  , w34;  .
july       w27: CAexit T, w28; drive10days300mDaily, w29; inFL, garner slides, w30; bloodDraw. 
june          w22: into38jeans, w23; CAhome, w24; selfHEAL, w25; TestPack, w26; HIdogCare.
may           w18: backupAir, w19; Nancy?dogs, w20; reinvent; w21 seclusion.
april       w14: DeBaryH.care, w15; muscleCrampsPAINw11on, w16; CA h.care, w17; stonesPass.
march     w13: PCP aims protein, carbs, 6m no b.donate, at least walk for 80#overweight42jeans.

weeks of month LIFE HISTORY FLOW
26 -  Susan/Greg in HI, whelm, eyesight, binges QoL, daily sun, fiber change, Fit table, under stress,
25 -  Greg in Lincoln,
24 -  CA retirement home not $ viable,
23 -  Sue to Indiana, home in CA offer,
22 -  wallet opens,
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80th year week 26 study of calendar history reconciled to 168 hours weekly for validity: 
CONFIDENT CALENDAR LIFEWAY aimed at detail pattern analysis and prompt actualization (article 1815);
- resisting whelm (fun_org), Hawaii dog sit/vet/eats/pills/vac, sociality twice unexpected, 
- supernatural dream (peace?death), 
HEALTHY AGING by Mayo Clinic;
- eyesight wanes, celebration binges QoL thwarting further #loss, R hip pain, no scooter/gym time this week,
- daily sun at In/Out, fiber change stops BM blood, 38w jeans with 5 cinch notches hangs on, wieners phase out,
AS-SET NICETIES support wellness; 
-  gleaned some 3ring papers, bought wiper inserts, Fit table board causes air bag light, bedroom tables to garage, 
-  support hose after showers, Netflix connected, 
SOURCE/USE of weekly hours;
Sleep   10h daily      took less      -5 h sleep down some under stress, of vet appointments 
Health               took less     -9 hours Hawaii vacation takes precedence, 
As-set maintenance   MORE    +8 h Fit improvements for trip to FL,
Visits (sociality)          MORE    +6 h Hawaii vacation dog sit and dog surgery followup,

……  under construction

11.  Harv’s too-responsible problem

What is Harv’s problem?  After thought stirring — is he too responsible?  In AP (amateur psychology) parlay, “Everyone is a too-responsible fit.”  

But Harv, in the mid 1990s flipped his housing responsibility within his then current singles-marketplace sociality,  from his tradition of male “bread winner” responsibility to the female having the household through divorce or widowhood.  In crude terms, “What lady?  You want ANOTHER household financed by me when you already have one from the previous fool?”  And Harv lost out in the competition for one lady he was helping ‘rehabilitate’ to a guy who build her a house !  She might not have realized that he was older and looking for a care-giver — good luck to yo both.

Ben Franklin had this “harder I work, the luckier I get think” that Harv whereby Harv listened to and added “the harder and smarter I work” as input into his work.life scheme.  So, he took a live-in with a millionaire MS lady whose leg twitched every 12 seconds when sound asleep.  Harv laid there in sex afterglow counting — before he moved off to another bedroom for his sleep.  The last and best sex of Harv’s whole life but not the best sweaty as with K.  S had a uterus that seem like a boxer punching ball.  “Wow !”  But S insisted that I backslide into a past job as College Professor.  So I increased the housing responsibility flipping by doing Contractual Home Sharing in the KCMO area.  After several years I moved on from P but she kept calling me for a year to come back. 

This is what Harv left behind. Why?  A: to chase family betterment and to live with Susan, then in Ohio.”

Thus in the 1990s, Harv had freed himself from that being too-responsible caused by his childhood AP fit.

Quite often, this tendency to be overly responsible stems from childhood experiences. Personal struggles, necessity to survive, fit in, be loved, keep the peace or avoid rejection. This pattern becomes a deeply ingrained habit, which means first, they are hard to discover and second, difficult to shift.May 5, 2023      https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/you-too-overly-responsible-your-own-good-mandy-napier-bsc#:~:text=Quite%20often%2C%20this%20tendency%20to,and%20second%2C%20difficult%20to%20shift.

Tell-tale signs of over-responsibility are guilt when saying no or being yourself, struggling to ask or receive help, fear of “outshining others,” extreme independence and inability to trust that others will take on responsibility so you take it on.Oct 10, 2023    https://nypost.com/2023/10/10/are-you-over-responsible-9-signs-of-a-people-pleaser/#:~:text=Tell%2Dtale%20signs%20of%20over,so%20you%20take%20it%20on.        The article title included “…9 signs of a 'people pleaser'.

Further problem, does Harv do AP fitting relative to Susan and his own self?  That is, “Is he still responsible at 86y for his 60y daughter who confides in him that her 15y therapist confronted Susan with being “passive suicidal”.  Harv the too-responsible parent panicked, forming an intervention team of friends and her peers.  Harv got chastised by Susan for that !

Harv had now dead Central Wisconsin relatives who wouldn’t talk to other close relatives for a dozen years.  When Harv actively listened as to what was the initial no-talk cause, the no-talkers could not remember — they forgot the cause but held unto the effect.  Harv thought — STUPID, and he continues to resist no-talk — but he paid a current price via no-talk Susan’s chastisement of Harv.   However, ‘daily’ texts have returned to the mailboxes, and everybody lives “Happily ever after.  Ha ha.  😳”

……  under construction


Are they the subject / victim of amateur psychology (AP) ?    

… the dispenser of psychological and psychoanalytical generalities, of truisms and "untruisms," has only one theory into which … the unfortunate party must fit.  https://psycnet.apa.org/record/2005-12019-003


Is this “shopping for what?” — looking for a source to pin an explanation upon the ‘problem’.

But he does not follow many traditional rules, and thus finds balance there.  Good old pop psychology playing to the human condition.


He evidences 


……  under construction

……  under construction items left behind from fragment 8.


In hindsight, that’s one task of his write, ie, the blog evidence part.  For week 35, he considers the blog.development task actualized (closed).  The next part is to change his behavior to self betterment, ie, (1) solidify Disney World flavor to retirement regiment, (2) better cope with daughter Susan’s hardship (her responsibility) without Harv’s self deprecation / disapproval (which probably was her father’s family condition, ie, deprecated / disapproved), (3) …


……  under construction


He updates his Blogger Contents following the ‘kindle contents’ model — that pushes Blogger to not only blog but to assist in Harv’s write.work.life.flow.  Previously, Scrivener was a ‘failure’ for Harv.

As part of his blog going forward, Harv added a ‘first’ BIGGIE underlined to indicate his lead task (one aim) for the week, that of write.work.flow — the link to which has been in Introduction.  In any linkage, the end-up is here — currently his upcoming 2025 SELF CALDRON, within which his write.work is critical for input clarity into his future self growth even in his 86th year.

An impactive example of clarity into Harv’s self is lit by a current events media article which he curates below.  The moral of the story is Harv searches for clarity of his self.

2024aug25sunday.       The hunt for clarity example.        Headline: The hunt for clarity.        The brother of James Cutfield, the captain, said he was a “well-respected” sailor who had worked on boats his whole life. Did the experienced sailor somehow make a series of catastrophic errors?        Rescuers instead found the wreckage of the Bayesian 50 meters underwater with its almost 10-meter-long keel raised.    Had it been deployed, it could have helped counter the wind buffeting the Bayesian’s 75-meter high aluminum mast and kept the ship stable. But without it, experts told the newspaper La Repubblica that gusts of 100 kilometers an hour (62mph) would have been enough to capsize the ship – and Monday’s storm far exceeded that.    Much of the focus for the investigation team is of course on the conduct of the captain, 51-year-old James Cutfield from New Zealand. He survived, along with eight of his crew, and is being questioned.        “We didn’t see it coming,” he told Italian media, alluding to the storm, in his only public comment so far.    The problem is: plenty of others did. Violent winds and rain were forecast, following days of searing heat. The head of the company that built the Bayesian, Giovanni Costantino, told me he was convinced there had been a litany of errors on board.    “At the back of the boat, a hatch must have been left open,” he said, “but also perhaps a side entrance for water to have poured inside.    "Before the storm, the captain should have closed every opening, lifted anchor, turned on the engine, pointed into the wind and lowered the keel."   https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/c0l8kj1p0ylo

Clarity.  Harv’s write.work.life.flow aim is clarity into his self.  Fo him, clarity means to write, and to read what he writes.  Unfortunately, his human entropy steals and hides his clarity from him.  In informal terms, “Harv fights the disorder within his self.”

So what does clarity get him?  In short, his clarity gets his self to positive human emotions / feelings within his self and the seeing of that in others — those are Joy Love Freeing (JLF).

Though out his 86 years, he has lost clarity continuously — he forgets, has a tendency not to follow current rules, gets into trouble,  he is a kid never growing up, …, and wants to grow his mind in intelligence in the interest of fulfilling his universal hierarchical human needs, those of Existence Relatedness Growth.  He considers his Existence and Relatedness fulfilled — although in-car living and COA sociality can be debated, and subject to authority.

To counter entropy and make his growth easier, and perhaps his behavior better, he has stumbled into Blogger publication to sharpen self criticism and allow another to peep into his inner workings about which he is also very curious.  Publication has permitted his ability to read his writing — his initial identification of his writing was apologetically referred to as “scribbling” (in his ignorance he has used “scribble” and “write”).  But as 2024 progresses, he is enthused by his Blogger writing.

Harv’s progress has been what some would describe as a long road.  His computer writing support began in 1980.  In 2024 week 34 he uncovered from his files a personal 1990s writing that mentioned his 13 year use of his T1000 computer — that was associated with his dissertation writing period challenge which pulled his job.work.life together under the heading of Functional Organization.  His formal education degree progress has been personal.life.work — a search / chase for self in his current terms.


……  under construction

7.  Two life-time parallel realities

Harv has long claimed life-long-learning interest.  Then one day, as he curated the news, he learned of what may be a parallel universe for him — that of naif.

His life-long-learning mantra may have been learned to cover, or in place of, his tradition-nurtured, born-innate, now-understood, alternate-mantra, that of, naif.

Jumping over any deep analysis, the naif characteristics offer an easy checklist for areas for freeing, as an individual progresses up their hierarchical needs of existence needs, relatedness needs, and growth needs.  A separate hierarchy comes into play on the journey to the positive emotional polarity — Joy, Love, Freeing, as opposed to moving away from the negative emotional polarity — Sad, Hate, Fear.  For a universal definition of the human self see another publication Section.  

  • — Naif characteristics easy checklist —

  • a person who lacks knowledge of evil
  • showing unaffected simplicity

Harv notes the NOTHING IS CAUSED BY THE LACK OF SOMETHING.  For example, 

……      under construction

5.  “Fatal Flaw” cannot diagnose

Fatal Flaw concludes from a supposed action.pattern — it is a conclusion.  To the contrary, acting.humans have self.choice.

1. A fatal flaw is a trait intrinsic to a person's character that causes him to meet with failure in the end. The term always implies failure, because failure is the only evidence that the fatal flaw is there in the first place.  https://www.ultius.com/glossary/literature/literature-vocabulary/fatal-flaw.html#:~:text=1.,there%20in%20the%20first%20place.

A fatal flaw, often referred to in literature and psychology, is a significant character defect or limitation. It can lead to one's downfall in real life. For example, these flaws can manifest as chronic behaviors or attitudes that consistently cause problems.Jun 4, 2024.  https://ceoptions.com/2024/06/fatal-flaws-are-patterns-that-keep-us-stuck-in-childhood-muck/#:~:text=A%20fatal%20flaw%2C%20often%20referred,attitudes%20that%20consistently%20cause%20problems.
Harv says, “Watch out for (be wary of) psychology.”. Seemingly, Harv has had a lifetime of psychology successes — breast fed baby, no peer competition, proud of youth work actualization, non-competitive in school (probably bored — explains walkaways and ‘eagerness’?), job success (but never collected a mentor), no second-guessing choices, decisive chices, …

Here are the 4 common fatal flaws:    Procrastination. This is likely the most common fatal flaw. ...    Perfectionism. We live in a society that glorifies perfectionism, but perfectionism is not only unrealistic but also leads to self-sabotage. ...    Fear of failure. ...    Lack of motivation. Aug 20, 2022      https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/top-4-fatal-flaws-prevent-us-from-being-successful-chua-mba-

“Actions study” could be a more effective approach to a human’s productivity, rather than innumerable “fatal flaws” or sins in a religious context.  For example, Harv possesses / owns his actions / functions / feelings / emotions as a human ‘producer’ of the human intrinsics of the joy-love-freeing positive polarity — away from the sad-hate-fear negative polarity.  Harv’s products / actions aim that he produces are self.joy, self.love, and self.freeing in a relatedness context, but primarily for his own existence self.worth needs.


4.  the need to scope ahead

In 2024, Harv began his write.flow — even before he has established what his write.flow is.  Sounds like he knows not where he’s going?  Not exactly.

He chooses his direction to write — but what exactly is that, he knows not — it’s perhaps a true adventure — the ultimate adventure ?.  He now knows in 2024, that publication was the key for him to feel a writer.  Now that his write-tool-train is Blogger, he seems to be missing the format.   APA for example?  Books?  Epub?  Just blog?  Journal submission?  Two-semester Benedictine course ed study results for example?  [He turned to Kindle for a model of Contents 24w33.]

He can collect / organize a presentation of write fragments on Blogger, that is, essays, a Master’s thesis, a PhD dissertation, and of late, a jumble of Blogger publication.  However, those fragments cannot be considered a write.flow.


1.  perennial Happiness

Here he is, in his third Disney World retirement phase, (1) <2015?K-Street interruption, (2) 2015?Forest Hill divorce, (3) 2017?Susan’s betterment advice; attempting to establish a write.flow evidentially connected to his happiness for 2025.  And, most importantly, is he happy with that — and a bunch of connection whys ?  Perhaps realizing that degrees didn’t do it, ‘his’ institutions didn’t do it, writing tools didn’t do it (Scrivener), …  

Where is Harv’s reading of his ‘write.material’ read.demand?  He has long simply answered — his self is the reader.  Perhaps that is his end aim — self optimization?

He is going to take a flyer — to link a written happiness fragment from 2019 and tie it to his hopeful 2025 write.flow.

The fragment:

2019dec10.    Haemin Sunim suggests a simple five-step plan to give yourself the gift of self-care this holiday season.         Breath         Accept         Write         Talk         Walk.         A trusted friend told him the solution was to “be good to yourself first — then to others.” The obvious forms of self-care are exercising, eating well and getting enough sleep. But self-care also means taking time for yourself to manage stress and practicing self-compassion, along with mindfulness and meditation techniques.     It may feel selfish or too time-consuming to focus on your own needs, and many of us don’t know where or how to start.  (https://www.nytimes.com/2019/12/10/well/mind/self-care-buddhism-monk-meditation-stress-anxiety-calm-Haemin-Sunim.html?algo=identity&fellback=false&imp_id=974651856&imp_id=295105890&action=click&module=Science%20%20Technology&pgtype=Homepage)

In the 1970s, Harv began his fight to focus on his owned self-defined needs.  His effort of illumination lays in his case.study.publication going forward into 2025 and beyond.

Harv’s happiness lay in his ability to focus his life:time energy into his write.flow productivity — NOT Breath         Accept         Write         Talk         Walk.    THUS, “ where or how to start,” is write.flow for Harv.  His interface with publication has been essential to Harv’s progress thus far.  Start by establishing a write.flow habit — #1 occurrence  24w31, #2 occurrence  24w33, #3 carried into 24w34 thus a habit may be forming — but much support cannot be ignored — (1) computers since 1980, (2) Spirit Command certification of his values, (3) Disney World retirement third try for a self.quality write.environ, (4) finances, (5) write.satisfaction / happiness verification, … 

Harv began his publication with a justification that he was the audience of one — thus he could reap the benefits of having to confront the disorganization that always existed, and intimidated a confidence-building series of steps to what he now sees as his write.flow — a bit of reprieve time if you will.

However, he abruptly realizes that his write flow can not / must not include the wishes of others — especially since he does not know precisely the benefits that he wants from his bud of write.flow.  

The pattern ingredients emerging for 2025, (1) write.flow, (2) work.flow [M.O.], (3) event.flow, (4) epoch.flow, (5) chase.flow, (6) focus.flow, (7) curate.flow, (8) cycle.flow [2 wheels, 3 wheels, 4 wheels], (9) E.R.G. needs fulfillment flow, (10) Harv the minimalist grinder, (11)  …           

His frustration with his write disorganization continues with several benefits appearing:

  • he had to confront his disorganization of thought realizing that he wasn’t spending enough time to bring solution, [he overran his self as a fatal flaw — from where did he learn that ?]
  • he persisted,
  • he attracted several peekers who were probably not readers of any sort and certainly no encouragement,
  • he enjoyed playing with the attractivrness of blog presentation,
  • he appreciated bringing to the fore more organizated presentation of ‘known’ material (a self-confidence builder),
  • today in 24week33, he actualized a second segment of his write.flow, and his “perfect blog” (similar to that of realizing his “perfect marriage” was in the eyes of his beholding — now his blog is held in similar status — thus perhaps, “He is a confirmed / evidenced perfectionist.”  But, he may also claim a grasp of “perfectionist closure” — a management tool for control of the “perfectionist process”),
  • fatal flaw study will clarify the grounding for Harv’s write.flow and in general his life:time.work.flow.   


…….   under reconstruction below  

2024

2024may10.     not asexual.      Opinion: Evangelicals See Trump’s Hedonism as Godly ‘Masculinity’  https://www.yahoo.com/news/opinion-evangelicals-see-trump-hedonism-084605187.html


2024apr16. parent responsibility.    Parents cannot shield their children from the world’s cruelty or our failures, but we can try to counter those things. We can provide moments that may become positive recollections to sit alongside harsher ones.    I have never understood people who complain about poor families buying a nice TV or shoes or taking their children out to eat. Is it all to be drudgery? Are struggling families not allowed to have dessert? I remember my mother buying us candy at the gas station, having decided that since we were already broke, we might as well take the happiness when we could get it.  https://www.nytimes.com/2024/04/16/opinion/parenting-mistakes-joy.html?campaign_id=301&emc=edit_ypgu_20240416&instance_id=120317&nl=your-places%3A-global-update&regi_id=91739846&segment_id=163924&te=1&user_id=c169c5df23b5bd14a95e704d648953e4


2024apr30. muse -- happiness.   From Dwyer, "there is no way to happiness.. (speaker's pause).  Happiness is the way.         If people are unhappy -- that is a personal problem, not a government problem --          The Republican pollster Frank Luntz recently shared video with CNN’s Erica Hill of focus groups he conducted with young people in which he asked whether they regard American democracy as strong. Few raised their hands.    “They don’t like anybody,” Luntz told Hill. “They see Joe Biden as being too old. They see Donald Trump as being corrupt. … They’re looking for a role model, looking for someone to aspire to be. And they don’t see it. And that’s the frustration.”    It’s not just Biden and politics that are turning off young Americans. Just 38% of younger Americans in CNN’s poll said they are satisfied with their personal financial situation. Compare that with the 65% of voters 65 and over who are satisfied.    Harvard University conducts a nationwide poll of young Americans ages 18-29 each year, and in this year’s edition, fewer than 1 in 10 said the nation was headed in the right direction, and 58% said the country was going “off on the wrong track.” Four years ago, more than 20% in the Harvard poll said the country was headed in the right direction.    The erosion of optimism among this key group during his presidency will be difficult for Biden and Democrats to correct before Election Day.   https://view.newsletters.cnn.com/messages/171442811750539d3ef68f9b5/raw?utm_term=171442811750539d3ef68f9b5&utm_source=cnn_What+Matters+for+April+29%2C+2024&utm_medium=email&bt_ee=OVaoN7gMXVhqUgzvUwTHbEsnB%2FZUTcSv5y%2BARr9ptUqEMgW%2B1OqcZuL4dRL837z0&bt_ts=1714428117508


2015

  ******** article 1745 begins

“Wellness, happiness” 2015jan01 neo2016sep06

>Abstract

Harv’s world in general [lifestyle patterns] funnel to a specific oneself life statement in its shortest version:

joy, love, freeing for oneself, another, others


>Prologue

A holiday challenge presents from current-event Model Oneself Routine.

Elizabeth Landau (December 25, 2014) Why happiness is healthy.  http://www.cnn.com/2014/03/20/health/happiness-wellbeing-health/index.html?hpt=hp_bn13 Happiness -- you know it when you see it, but it's hard to define.                Being able to manage the emotional ups and downs is important for both body and mind, said Laura Kubzansky, professor of social and behavioral sciences at Harvard School of Public Health. "For physical health, it's not so much happiness per se, but this ability to regulate and have a sense of purpose and meaning," Kubzansky said. A 2012 review of more than 200 studies found a connection between positive psychological attributes, such as happiness, optimism and life satisfaction, and a lowered risk of cardiovascular disease. If you have a good sense of well-being, it's easier to maintain good habits: Exercising, eating a balanced diet and getting enough sleep, researchers said. People who have an optimistic mindset {growth} may be more likely to engage in healthy behaviors because they perceive them as helpful in achieving their goals, Kubzansky said.


Here, an opportunity presents for integration of several bits of philosophy.

For 2019 current week 22 from week 20 Harv’s blog aim is via the NOW, superseded by THE MARCH INTO THE VOID from week 09.  Week 09 expressed about a fictions book The Psychology of The Bastard (TPTB) to address unfilled, structure and emptiness. And “longing less,” progressed from there prior week 08 as “still longing.”  Weeks 13 and 14 transit from CA to FL more life shaking bastard putdowns from which only Harv can recoup and refortify (fortify: verb: strengthen with defensive works so as to protect against attack: • strengthen or invigorate mentally or physically. OAD)

>Sweet dreams — sleep. 2019jun06

In current week 23, Harv seems to have lost blog specificity, but he will take the time to patch it up now (after a nap).

Amitha Kalaichandran (https://www.nytimes.com/2019/06/04/well/mind/sleep-hospital-patients-doctors-fatigue.html?em_pos=small&ref=headline&nl_art=2&te=1&nl=well&emc=edit_hh_20190605) If sleep were regarded as a continuous infusion of a medication that helped a patient heal faster, provided them with emotional stability, and ensured they were in the best mind-set to understand the risks and benefits of that care, we would think twice about disrupting it.


In short, Harv has understood his “sweet dreams” from his first “bastard put-downs” experienced as a toddler.

>Goals from web site

VISION--MISSION--STRATEGY    --   life  statement  --  article 1706

joy, love, freeing; away from sad, hate, fear; 

for oneself, another, others; 

in the context of a longer and more productive lifetime and life time


>Asides    

ice cream -- joy

comedy -- freeing

leper -- oneself

productive life and longevity -- vision and strategy


>Leper

Figurative leprosy affords Harv time for oneself. For example, his children treat him a leper -- which he may turn to immediate advantage.

Born a bastard, the Catholic theology had philosophy everywhere. He was disquieted, with no way out of no-talk. He studied lifelong but no answer yet in his eighth decade to get out of no-talk. Not that philosophy isn’t needed. It is. However, Harv still has a need to gain/claim a oneself from his tradition (his lifetime). [ACTUALIZED -- Me-Self chart (click here)]

>Lifelong disquiet

Anxiety, he is sure, has caused, or does cause his high blood pressure levels, seemingly immune of medication. His low blood pressure level 140.90 is satisfactory as his normal. But can the past causation of the high level be reversed -- in both cause and effect?

Ice cream is a comfort food taken with entertainment. Binge eats calm. Bridge, especially duplicate, is anxiety ridden. Walk raises blood pressure, but helps lose weight? Or, at least the walk moves the fat from the lower legs? Probably, the lower legs have permanent damage to veinal elasticity from medications. Harv is stuck in the inability to lose weight -- he knows what his diet spreadsheet shows, then he chooses to consume 2000 calorie ice cream for comfort.

>Introduction

The time for this article is opportune.

Sue focuses on her new home while Harv turns his support chase to his personal silent killer he confronted in November. 

His identification as family leper is evidenced. His definition of leper is his life-long fatal-flaw chase turned inside out. Recently, he expects even less from family, but over enthusiastically responds to communication shares. 

His clinic assignment to a Patient Care Specialist (Lisa Williams) has provided talk time, in support of his self-Tx of HTN. He also continues communication with several favorite PharmD’s.

The inception of an end-of-2014 weekly blog in short-phrase format tickles for communication, and challenges entrance to his tome via the HarvOtto.us domain. In preparation for responsive communication, Harv continues article scribble, and betters the tome via Scrivener [deemphasized 2024]

>Background

His life time priority is to confront his silent killer HTN. Harv aims to resolve his HTN but will not endure his problems of poor life quality.

He quit two decades of HTN Rx play in 2015 November, and the challenge of his first scheduled blood donation since, has forced some high-stress study-fear and choices.

>Purpose

The article title has already brought together several keywords.

As this article develops, more keywords/issues come into play -- random HTN measurement, all of philosophy history via podcast, non cooperation of walk muscles, enjoyment of ice cream, headaches with IBU reluctance, inflammation in general, etc.

>A two-mile walk for a super feel. 2019jan26.

Harv awoke tis day with the thought that since his bad-back was better via weeks of rest and heat pad, he should aim for some exercise, even at the current 81st year slow pace. 

A one-way drop via Susan fit both schedules. From Sue’s drop, Harv began the walk aim with a short errand. Then lunch at his regular In n Out respite. The walk home used ten transformer boxes for rest spots. Made it! An immediate short nap, then awake with the old Johnny Carson exhilaration attitude. And a pint of frozen yogurt to satisfice the science of body/spirit replenishment. Plus water for hydration while sitting up in bed.

The purpose of the errand was to purchase a ‘belt’ to strap the bed’s mattress to the bed frame to prevent moving away from the wall that supports Harv’s laptop sitting position. (The bed frame has legs which grip the carpet whereas the mattress ‘slides’ under the subtle force of the back resting against the wall.) The ‘belt’ turned out to be Paracord.

A nicety was completed — first use of a new utility knife to replace a pocket knife stolen by airport grazers looking for items of interest within easy reach beneath the zippers. Pocket knife worth $2 (haha), but the sign is Harv’s need to organize his as-set.

The laptop scene then went into MOR mode, that is, BBC NPR and CNN review resulting in a muscle article in support of today’s super feel.

Johnathan Lambert. https://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2019/01/25/688838589/muscles-may-preserve-a-shortcut-to-restore-lost-strength

Muscle weakness is a major cause of injury in the elderly, and as we age it becomes harder to grow new muscle. "Of course we need further confirmation in humans, but the idea that is you exercise, you get more nuclei and you have them forever," says Gundersen. Schwartz adds, "If we can bank muscle nuclei early in life, when it's easier to build muscle, we could then draw on these later in life to slow the effects of aging." 

 

Harv banked his leg muscles via bicycle. Now, in his 81st year, he is reduced to a tricycle, but rebuilds his walk muscles.

>Random HTN measurement

Several curiosities have arisen -- two tiers of reads with the low reads are associated with sleep but there are exceptions like eats coma, there is no interest by the medical industry in statistical analysis, and Harv does not have the interest alone. A vibration has become apparent from the outside of his right pec muscle.

Harv will continue to observe and speculate patterns of blood pressure based on six random reads daily.

>Vibration observation

At first he though the occurrence as a muted cell phone vibration, but too muted and on the side opposite where his cell phone hangs against his chest. Perhaps it is heart valve leakage under his high tier blood pressure.

>Eats coma observation

Several months ago, low blood pressure was observed to associate with eats comatose, that is, after a binge mid-day meal, blood pressure would be Harv’s normal, and would easily pass the blood donation limits of 168/98.

>Inflammation

Harv is predisposed to no IBU. With the possibility of high blood pressure headache, he should take IBU without hesitation.

My organ functions have tested okay.

>Conclusion 2015jan01

Harv thinks that wellness has a high importance for his Model Oneself Routine (MORe -- also Modus Operandi Routine with the ‘e’ for his always “extra”). He will readdress this article for some time to come.

> 2019jun04

As Harv ‘exercised’ his ‘regular’ MORe sequence — nan, pills, v8, diet soda, half-serving of licorice at dawn; then park rest; then lunch of decaf coffee, McDouble of 350c.220s and diet soda of 0c.0s where the lower left leg ‘burst’ into pain8. This was the day a wellness article appeared in his MORe review of news media.

Stephanie O’Neill (https://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2019/06/04/728810438/well-explores-the-social-and-political-underpinnings-of-health The typical American conversation about health focuses on personal choice as a key driver — the foods we choose to eat, the number of steps we log each day, the doctors we visit and the medicines we take. But epidemiologist Sandro Galea says that way of thinking is the wrong way. Galea says understanding that our health is a product of the world around us serves to remove "our reflexive stigmatization."  And that's important, he says, because stigma itself is known to erode self-esteem and confidence, which in turn causes social isolation that can further trigger other health problems.  Galea says his book, represents a culmination of 20 years of studying and working in public health. He was motivated to write it by the huge gap between what the US spends on health care and the relatively low return on that investment.  "Part of my job is to make sure that the world understands what it really takes to generate health," Galea says. US life expectancy — which is the lowest among all comparable nations — has actually fallen in recent years. He points out that the lifespan of a baby born in the US today is now on average five years shorter, than if that baby were born in Japan, a nation that spends half of what we do on health, per person. To improve the nation's overall physical and mental health, Galea says we need to understand that a slew of factors that may seem to have little connection to health are actually the drivers of it. Headers: Acknowledging the past; Seeing the power in a place;  Understanding no one's an island; Cultivating humility; Deepening compassion;  and Shifting perspective on death. A shift in our attitude toward death could help us live better, according to Galea. We need to embrace death's inevitability and then strive to "die healthy," he says. "Because once you and I say we value living healthy for as long as possible, then we've got to stop investing enormous amounts of money into end-stage treatments that do nothing to prolong quality of life, let alone longevity."


Super health encompasses Harv’s desire to “die healthy.”

>Happy Harv

While in college, Harv was the anchor man for the teen’s bowling team in the men’s league. His bowling was paid by the establishment, and he never could nudge his average above the high 190s. 

The team scoresheet had nicknames. Harv was knighted by the team with the nickname of Happy Harv.

>Trek

For the first week of 2015, trek seems a full time job. 

Feet and legs went through weeks of trials -- blisters, aches, black toenails, swollen feet, skinner ankles.

Hypertension medication was not the cause of swollen ankles. But, to cause skinny ankles, trek now seems necessary. The 50 mg hydrazine dose to meet the 168/98 blood donation limits caused a mental whatever. 

Neither does HTN Rx interfere with weight loss or gain. Harv easily held his weight or probably gained via daily ice cream. He justified the ice cream as celebrations for whatever.

>Susan defines her self. {Evidence of co-dependency?}

I was going to look at it starting tonight or this weekend.  That post is so me!   Looking too far into future instead of staying in present-moment!   


Harv studies his past to compare the ideas with Harv’s theory of self. 

Perhaps there are two states of mind (1) to dream (2) to actualize.

Maslow was the actualization science idea guy. Dyer writes of actualization as a pop psychology idea.

Harv has this post PhD idea that he can write scientifically about a case study of his oneself in the context of Functional Organization.

His thought via study of Sue’s self definition if to test his present moment productivity with two questions. Is that a dream? Or, is that a GOTo actualization?

To write of his case study is a dream? Or does this written subsection constitute an actualization?

Do the mere words present actualization?

Perhaps for the self, the evidence doesn’t matter, or the evidence is simply in the eye of the beholder. In Harv’s case study, it would be Joy-Love-Freeing, as he actualizes his lifetime for his life time, would be a dream.

In Sue’s case study, she uses pop psychology as motivation to choose actualization.

Meeting realtor to drop off payment for inspections. Then lunch with Laura.  Then Lowe’s.  Then home to unpack!  Still haven't "moved in" to house.  


The functions actualized are in the threads of sell-house (a dream), socialization with Laura (to actualize support/direction), Lowe’s to move-in to new house (a dream). 

Perhaps for Harv, a similar scenario may be the actualization of his entertainment, that provides his judgement of JLF -- all JLF simply an exercise of a dream fantasy with purpose of a quality life and a quality death in the context of the choice to accept that responsibility and GOTo.

In Harv’s case study, he just “thinks too much.” He dreams the actualization of JLF.

What about his wholly hour actualization for last week? Sleep was 72 hours actualized. Health was 62 hours actualized. Self operation of his assets as a set (as-set) was 24 hours actualized. Vagabondage was 10 hours actualized.

Thus Harv lives and dies as an accomplished leper, whereas Dyer is worth $24 million. Yet Harv facilitates his kid’s houses ownership, and yet he is still delimited to the status leper.

Until he is called for family sociality, he tracks his wholly hours of vagabondage.

For the leper is a vagabond. Is it cause or effect?

When Sue needs more, she will call. But the need is not for sociality with the leper. Yet, the leper chooses to blog family for sociality? Or is Cici enough sociality? As his jobs provided superb sociality.

Now his RIM provides flexibility for family sociality. Absent that, the RIM provides flexibility for trek (Joy-oneselfLove-Freeing).

Without family attraction, Harv just moves on, as was his jobs pattern, but now with adequate retirement income.

He chooses his next task as December finances reconciliation.

In the spirit of challenge love, he walks away from the Sue chat so as to not think too much.

Long range, this presumed smarter, not harder actualization will lead to the actualization of a post-driver’s-license residence with either Sue or Chris (or Lisa, or …).

Perhaps that thought is ahead of its time, which is the way Harv got to or still is the dreamer ahead of his time.

His actualization blog now concerned with HTN management and blood donation and RIM spiff, will turn more to trek adventure.

Perhaps Sue will acquire a butler. Or Tina. Not Lisa, nor any other Home Care or Home Share.

Harv will enjoy the sub-tropics of  the Real Florida.

>Conclusion 2015jun28

Added abstract for this article from HarvOtto.us .

Under the distress of backache, Harv quotes an instance of a macro-to-micro application of any life task.

Gavin Hewitt (2015jun28) Greek debt crisis: A country on the brink. http://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-33303417 Neither the government in Athens nor Europe's leaders are in a position of their [choice]. The past few weeks and months are a story of stubbornness and grandstanding. Above all it has been a failure to reconcile two narratives. After the election in January which brought the radical left party Syriza to power, Europe's leaders were determined that the new Greek government should live up to the commitments agreed by the previous administration. Europe wanted to send a message that the eurozone could not be buffeted by elections and the popular vote. They also were worried that populist parties elsewhere in Europe could demand an easing of austerity and the eurozone's rules. Alexis Tsipras, the new Greek prime minister, believed that austerity had failed Greece. The economy had shrunk 25% in five years and, in his view, had sparked a humanitarian disaster. He had promised an end to austerity -- a promise that he was not in a position to keep because other democratically elected governments in the eurozone had voters too. They were not willing to finance Greece any longer without substantial reforms.


Harv makes a choice to continue his bastard/maverick self-tradition for whatever psychosomatic reason. Note well his reason argument -- at this very life phase he pursues Philosophy study for the betterment of his life forward (assumed that he survives his haha backaches). He reconciles many narratives.

>Stress as non wellness life style

Harv spent six months in 2016 while his stealth Primary Care Physician gave him JNC8 -- a ‘marvel’ of health care system politics v service to Harv, especially since his ‘home’ blood pressure was not reduced. Harv, over the decades, very slowly realizes that ‘he must change his life style.’ But, "What is that and what is the way to do that?"

For decades, Harv assumed that the solution to his HTN was medication. One decade he lived on his bicycle thinking that it was the medication that gave him lower blood pressure. But, perhaps his blood pressure was lower in spite of the medication that inflamed and discolored his ankles. Interestingly that his PCP silently stopped short of designed meds after the JNC8 Tx. The PCP was also silent on a life style change Tx sendoff. His goal of return to every-eight-week blood donation thwarted!

Harv resolves to rework his health care services to a smarter rather than harder function. He works to understand a lower-blood-pressure life style -- the resurrection of his Mediterranean diet a beginning. Another step is to tone down exercise so as to not debilitate his older-age performance (possibly/probably on the late life/death spiral interface -- age of father’s death, skin cancer, unable to cope with hyperactive health care services). That performance moved his thoughts to the enjoyment of a wellness feel the 2016 week of 16w24 and some subsequent scribble.

Padraig Belton (13 June 2016) Is tech addiction making us far more stressed at work? http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/business-36517644 This "always on" culture - exacerbated by the smartphone - is actually making us more stressed and less productive, according to some reports. The Quality of Working Life 2016 report from the Chartered Management Institute earlier this year found that this obsession … is making it difficult for many of us to switch off. And this is increasing our stress levels. Some tech firms believe monitoring our computer behavior is a first step in seizing back control of our work-life balance. Robby Macdonell from Nashville Tennessee, founded tech start-up RescueTime because he was so frustrated not knowing where his days were going. He was being distracted too easily.

"These alerts are very well designed to capture your attention and stimulate the parts of your brain that say, 'I have to react to this right now'," he says. He developed a program to monitor how much time we spend on each application and give users the ability to block certain programs for set periods of time. Similarly, Dajia Zhu from Hangzhou in eastern China, wrote the StayFocused app to help himself and others be honest about how much time they were devoting to work tasks, as opposed to web browsing or messing about on social media. And if you find working in an open-plan office distracting, you can always try ChatterBlocker, an app that plays sounds to neutralize office ambient noise. Google, Target, and the Marine Corps have all recently introduced meditation sessions in the workplace. Insurer Aetna found that just an hour a week of such activity reduced employees' stress levels by a third - and their healthcare costs by $2,000 (£1,400) a year. He hopes we'll use our smartphones in queues or on public transport to practice breathing and concentration techniques … Perhaps we just have to learn to switch the damned things off.


Harv still does not understand meditation for his oneself.

>Conclusion 2016jun14

None scribbled.

>Conclusion 2016jun15

Original title of this article: “World view, wellness, happiness”.

Under his MOR routine, Harv absorbs a world view, scribbling selections to build his tome in pursuit of purpose and meaning. His multi generational residence has been prominent of late. He continues to regulate the liquidation of his wealth on a controlled basis, to preserve his ‘rich’ stature.

>A oneself identity v a leper

A BBC4 podcast reports a general phenomenon that the UK youth economy has decreased 30% while the retirement generation increased 30%. In Harv’s general awareness, the US retirement generation is rich. As an individual, Harv, having retired at 52, is not rich in his generational economy, but is rich in net funds available -- he is a minimalist and vagabond. Those characteristics have permitted him to solidify in 2016, his identity as a multi generational NC resident (preceded by RIM alights and a few residences).

His vagabond identity rests with the DeBary house/dogs/orchids sits, among other sits of responsibility. He entertains a return to the Marco Island clime.

Retirement finances as a minimalist remain stable.

Personal wellness has made a surprise reappearance. The challenge is to solidify the wellness super health feel.

The wellness super health feel reappearance exists in an environment -- physiology and calendar come to mind. The biggest stretch of Harv’s environment is the fabric of time and space.

Jonathan Amos (15 June 2016) More gravitational waves detected. http://www.bbc.com/news/science-environment-36540254 Gravitational waves are a prediction of the Theory of General Relativity

It took decades to develop the technology to directly detect them

They are ripples in the fabric of space and time produced by violent events

Accelerating masses will produce waves that propagate at the speed of light

Detectable sources ought to include merging black holes and neutron stars

LIGO fires lasers into long, L-shaped tunnels; the waves disturb the light

Detecting the waves opens up the Universe to completely new investigations


Besides violent events, Harv is rippled by his HTTP://HAPPYHARVOTTO.BLOGSPOT.COM life flow. He attempts lifeway study in support of smarter life time choices.

Identity balance sheet:

HEALTH

eyesight better -- beta carotene seems causal, triggered at 2016 eyewear review

walk to/from McDonald 3 miles -- pushes the limit to Harv’s ability to exercise (adequate rest recharges) one-way walk too inconvenient

BCC cancer does not metastasize why then the MOHS rush for 78yo -- second Tx opinion proceeds but not a priority

oral hygiene effective -- 2016 Fall maintenance scheduled in Florida (2016 NC medical care a disaster, both FL and NC dermatology a disaster)

wellness (aka super health) -- 

AS-SET 

VISIT

eviction unencumbered by cancer entanglement (ill-health chase) -- just Younkin on way out of town 

ventures out of his warehouse are precarious 

SLEEP


>Professional politician v a oneself

Is Harv overqualified to be a professional oneself?

The question is non sense, posed from the view of not knowing the way to be better or unwilling to change the actualization or its path.

http://www.bbc.com/news/election-us-2016-36556989 (2016jun17) US elections: Sanders 'to work with Clinton' to beat Trump. ”The major political task that we face in the next five months is to make certain that Donald Trump is defeated and defeated badly, and I personally intend to begin my role in that process in a very short period of time," he said. But, the senator added, defeating Mr Trump could not be their only goal. "We must continue our grassroots effort to create the America that we know we can become. "And we must take that energy into the Democratic National Convention on 25 July in Philadelphia, where we will have more than 1,900 delegates." Mr Sanders said it was "no secret" that he and Mrs Clinton, who met on Tuesday night, had "strong disagreements on some very, very important issues". "I look forward, in the coming weeks, to continued discussions... to make certain that your voices are heard and that the Democratic Party passes the most progressive platform in its history and that Democrats actually fight for that agenda," he added. "I also look forward to working with Secretary Clinton to transform the Democratic Party so that it becomes a party of working people and young people." He stressed that his vision for the future was not a fringe or radical idea, but something that "millions of Americans believe in and want to see happen". In a separate development on Thursday, Mrs Clinton won the endorsement of the AFL-CIO, the largest union federation in the US with 12.5 million members.


Katty Kay (7 June 2016) Why aren't we more excited about Clinton? http://www.bbc.com/news/election-us-2016-36466348 We've really been reworking a version of the "first viable female candidate for the presidency" story since 20 January 2007, the first time Hillary Clinton declared her candidacy for the White House. We're exhausted. We've run out of superlatives. We've overused every anecdote from the former first lady, former senator, former secretary's well-covered life. A woman president would be new, Hillary Clinton is not.

 

Harv was raised with the joy of work (function actualization).

His recent wellness feel led to overstep of his warehouse delimit. He has regressed from the wellness ‘high’ via physical aches and a return to his routines focus (MOR …).

He could ask: Why aren't we more excited about Harv? A: That’s what got Harv in trouble -- his exuberance over his rediscovered wellness.

A return to his oneself routines corrects his concern, with the Marco Island idea in reserve (a forced RIM vacation of sorts).

>The ask

Does Harv ask of his needs? A: Not enough in the past and at present.

Phil Mattingly, Theodore Schleifer and Manu Raju (http://www.cnn.com/2016/06/20/politics/donald-trump-gop-donors/index.html) GOP donors rattled by Trump. Republican fundraisers recognize that whether it's disinterest, a poor work ethic or some combination of both, he's undermining himself. "There are very few people who like to do the ask, so I can understand why Donald Trump — first time at age 70 — doesn't want to make the ask," said one longtime RNC fundraiser. "He doesn't want to make the calls. He's just in a little bit better position to avoid it than I am."

Trump himself appears to acknowledge his general distaste for the practice,


MJ Lee and Jeremy Diamond (http://www.cnn.com/2016/06/20/politics/corey-lewandowski-out-as-trump-campaign-manager/index.html?adkey=bn) Trump's inability — and apparent lack of interest — in toning down his rhetoric going into the general election season has deeply troubled the party. There is widespread concern that without a dramatic course change, Trump will continue to be significantly outmatched by presumptive Democratic nominee Hillary Clinton on many fronts, including organization, communications and fundraising.


Harv studies his needs within the context of universal ERG needs fulfillment. For Existence, he has the RIM and Lego room sixty square feet for his as-sets. The room is in a multi generational setting for Relatedness. For Growth, he has his MOR routine and weekly blog for focus.

>Oneself security 2016sep06

In “a1799 iStrength” Harv scribbles >Reset 2016sep06. There he deals with the life flow from Huntcliff to DeBary and his return to Huntcliff advantage.

Below is a more general view of Huntcliff advantage.

David G. Allan (http://www.cnn.com/2016/09/05/health/love-job-you-hate-wisdom-project/index.html) Fall in love with a job you don't even like, in three steps. Do not like being there? Maybe you're one of them, living a life that Henry David Thoreau would have described as one of "quiet desperation." Very little addresses the fundamental issue of your day-to-day happiness, which is a shame, since you don't need anyone else to give you that happiness. The factors that can tip the scales one way or the other for happiness can boil down to our innate desire for three things: control over our lives, positive daily connections, and joy and meaning in how we spend our waking time.


Harv’s positive daily connections are any one of the Huntcliff six and Sue texts and many interactions in the Triangle region. His control of 168 wholly hours weekly is an ongoing challenge evidenced in his blog and mostly nonexistent web site but he does have meaning in his life inched along by his scribble.

For that daily personal contact, Harv will return to Huntcliff directly from DeBary -- also to recapture the minimization of induced anxiety.

Will that preclude the need for vagabondage medical insurance? Does Florida hold the key to quality health care?

>Wellbeing creation

Youthful spirit, Happy Harv, and a smile to others are his oneself keywords.

http://www.bbc.com/news/uk-38285223 (12 December 2016) Mental health and relationships 'key to happiness’. "In the past, the state has successively taken on poverty, unemploymenteducation and physical health. But equally important now are domestic violence, alcoholism, depression and anxiety conditions, alienated youth, exam-mania and much else." "The evidence shows that the things that matter most for our happiness and for our misery are our social relationships and our mental and physical health.” The state needed to play a new role in its citizens' happiness -- focusing on "wellbeing creation" rather than "wealth creation". Biggest effect was caused by depression and anxiety, which saw happiness levels dip by 0.7 on the scale. Unemployment also saw the same reduction in points. Having a partner saw happiness rise by 0.6 -- losing a partner by separation or death saw the same impact downwards. The study was based on several international surveys from around the world. On a scale of one to 10, the doubling of someone's pay saw their happiness rise by less than 0.2. The researchers said this was down to people caring more about how their incomes compared to other people's than how it affected them.


Harv’s tradition disallows partner/partnership effort for his secondary operational level, rather ingratiated by independent effort -- evidenced by sociality actualization (16w50 V15h a two month high).

His primary operational level is employment and anxiety -- supported by hi-tech Air (McD/Cici) and HTN Rx (BP cuff) -- both covered by 16w50 A37h and H59h respectively. 

Jacqueline Howard, (http://www.cnn.com/2016/12/14/health/stress-income-inequality/index.html) How much you make may be linked to how much you stress. A new paper suggests that money can buy less stress and a longer life. "We were surprised that health appears to be deteriorating for people across all income groups, though the change is more pronounced for those with low incomes," said Diane Whitmore Schanzenbach, director of The Hamilton Project, a senior fellow at the Brookings Institution and a co-author of the paper. "For example, income insulates individuals from chronic stress associated with food insecurity, violence and substandard housing and also provides better access to high-quality health care."


With ingenuity, Harv has lived at Marco Island, played bridge, and danced. Why then did he ever leave -- for family, for health care?

>Worried well

Harv has had HTN for 20 years -- still uncontrolled, in fact, worse with the cause still not clear.

WORRIED WELL: noun: (informal) the worried well, the people who do not need medical treatment, but who visit the doctor to be reassured, or with emotional problems. (Collins English Dictionary - Complete & Unabridged 2012 Digital Edition)


http://www.bbc.com/news/health-37861617 (accessed 2017jan12: 4 November 2016) Worried well 'might boost heart risk’.  Health anxiety describes when people have a "persistent preoccupation" with having or acquiring a serious illness, and seeking prompt medical advice, without any symptoms of an actual disease.


In recent years, Harv looks to his life-long anxiety as the HTN cause that has not been solved, as evidenced by 20 years of trying. 

His 2017 PCP medical advice included, new medications, a therapist, a bicep cuff, and a return to CPAP. For week 17w02 he works daily on “VA” anxiety awareness and a CPAP rebuild specifically. His 2016 advice was JNC8. For 2015 weight loss to 198# 33 waist jeans. In 2014, hydralazine was continued. Previously, many medications of discoloration and inflammation, accusation of skipped pills, and much skin-cancer bicycle, and blood donation every eight weeks.

The HTN control aim uses (1) a convenient monitor with data capture but no randomization as in 2015, (2) no caffeine 2017, (3) CPAP return, (4) weight loss, (5) Mediterranean diet, (6) combination of bicycle and strength exercise, (7) non anxiety sociality -- less expectations, life-productivity to a crawl even reclusive [run away tradition?], …

Daughter Susan is the last person that Harv has chased for love -- no doubt a source of anxiety specifically and in general. She is an adult settled in her lifeway, and capable of sharing with her father independently of Harv’s chase to home share with her for his aim to recluse. Without Harv’s chase she can choose to share without Harv’s initiative -- his initiative goes into the scribble needed to direct his lifeway directly to his remaining lifeway time (life time v lifetime) for his super health of joy, love, freeing.

Worry aside, Harv has super health -- for use to actualize his life aims is that are in his vision, mission, and strategy lifeway statement. Unfortunately, his now chronic HTN makes his goal of blood donation impossible.

>Psychologically different

Harv is not of the Huntcliff psychology.

David Robson (19 January 2017) http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20170118-how-east-and-west-think-in-profoundly-different-ways Few people living in Hokkaido today have ever needed to conquer the wilderness themselves. And yet psychologists are finding that the frontier spirit still touches the way they think, feel and reason, compared with people living in Honshu just 54 km (33 miles) away. They are more individualistic, prouder of success, more ambitious for personal growth, and less connected to the people around them. In fact, when comparing countries, this ‘cognitive profile’ is closer to America than the rest of Japan.  Hokkaido’s story is just one of a growing number of case studies exploring how our social environment moulds our minds. Wherever we live, a greater awareness of these forces can help us all understand our own minds a little better. Generally speaking, people in the West tend to be more individualist, and people from Asian countries like India, Japan or China tend to be more collectivist. 


Today’s (19jan2017) incidental awareness was to use lunch away as an excuse to get away from Huntcliff, specifically the young’uns. 

>Title chronology

2015jan01 neo2016sep06. 

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1.  Harv’s jobs.life

Probably within a year of his taking his first job after his BSME, Harv was taking pre-MBA courses in night school.    The 1960s MBA study could be looked upon as another job, but not necessarily a job.job.

[A thought out of nowhere — “Was his 1960s MBA study his deep-down initial reaction to marriage forever?]

Skipping ahead to 2025, the presupposition is that his 2024 Disney World retirement phase still has traction.    The ‘2024 DW retirement job’ was chosen through experimentation to be train / buses Wednesday and drive Saturday and Sunday.    That’s Harv’s “2024 DW retirement WORK”.    Additionally, Harv does “COA dining work”.


1.  perennial Happiness

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2.  13,000 years later — recreation by Harv 

2024aug11.    The findings, published last month in Time & Mind, suggest that a series of V-shaped symbols carved onto the pillars at Gobekli Tepe each represents a single day. When added up, they seem to record the date a swarm of comet fragments hit earth in 10,850 BC, triggering a 1,200-year ice age that led to the extinction of many large animals, including mammoths, steppe bison and other large Pleistocene mammals.    “This event might have triggered civilization by initiating a new religion and by motivating developments in agriculture to cope with the cold climate,” Sweatman said.    The possible comet strikehas long been a source of fascination — and disagreement — between scientists. If the V-symbol hypothesis is correct, it could provide groundbreaking support for the hypothesis.    “Possibly, their attempts to record what they saw are the first steps towards the development of writing millennia later,” he said.  https://www.npr.org/2024/08/11/g-s1-16502/worlds-oldest-solar-calendar-turkey-gobekli-tepe-comet-strike